The Inconspicuous Asshole

LISTEN TO THIS CUZ THIS IS MY LIFE AND I CANT LIVE WITH OUT THIS STUPID SONG.

no lie, I listened to this song like forever ago and my heart gets so excited, did it inspire some writing? yeah. so you should listen to it! or not, no pressure of course I would never want to force anyone to do anything lol. 
anywho just sharing randomness~
IF you do listen, hope you enjoy ^^

Sorry for anyone who had been waiting for an update on La Douce Deni. I've been away from home at my summer job. 
There was no laptop.
There was no wi-fi.
I am barely alive.
Things will be updated soon enough when I am well rested, fed, and showered and done working my new babysitting job for a week.
But I just wanted to get my apology out there so people don't like think I'm dead or gave up on my fic. 
...yeah.
And I am grateful to those that will still read my crappy writing after all this absence.
Thank you, I'm sorry, and I will work harder in the future. 

This is a personal rant, so don't feel obligated to read it lol. and I curse a lot when I'm pissed so if you feel uncomfortable with that just stop reading this right now.

  ugh. Im freaking the fuck out. my final projects are piling on and my final semester is going to end soon. I have my room assignment for next year but I don't have my PIN number i need to log into my school's site to schedule my classes and my advisor hasn't been answering my emails. so thanks very much you weird person who is supposed to advise me...ugh. annoying. 
  and then i need to fine MONEY for next year and idk what the hell is going on with my FAFSA cuz they keep saying i completed the form but I haven't gotten any award letter for money and so I'm freaking out like how the fuck am I supposed to pay for fucking college! dipshits. piss me the fuck off.
  and on top of that, this person whom i dislike very much (I mean like a fucking a lot.) is getting on my last nerve. so i decided to become extra loner and not go anywhere near her. i ignore her to the max, no politeness, no smiles. even when she said hi to me i ignored and walked away. this is the right thing to do right? i have made it clear that her attitude angers me and to leave me alone. that i dont want to talk to her. so why bother and ask me questions like shit never happened?
  im ready to punch  a freaking wall and scream my head off like there is no tomorrow. and dangit I WANT SOME DAMN SUSHI. i haven't had any in a friggin long time and i think i have suffered enough. ugh. ugh. RAAAWR. 
  I'm not getting enough sleep as it is, and everything feels like its falling apart. but silly me will just continue to put a smile on and do shit the best way that i know how. i put my shit aside and act like everything is fucking okay and continue on. i'll probably fall on my ass in the end, knowing me. I'll probably fail. but whatever. I'm sick and tired right now. going to punch a wall. 

Sooooo I happily figured out that it was only my adapter that was messed up and a girl down the hall LUCKILY had the same exact charger as me and I plugged it in and my baby began charging! So! All I need to do is purchase a new chord and all will be well!
GAG I AM SO RELIEVED! xD
Si for everyone who is waiting for my updates I hope you can understand my situation and I will do my best!
GASH I'M SO HAPPY!

Ahhhh I am unhappy today...I have been unhappy alot these days. 
Why do I feel loneliest on this day?? T-T
I don't understand.
Whatever. Not like it is important anyways.
Not really a happy birthday for me. 

*bows to the floor* I am so sorry to all of the readers who have been following my recent fic: My Competition.
I have a lot of work to do. I am super busy and I just need to be focusing on ma edumacation for awhile. You understand right?
This means: no updates. For atleast the next three weeks. 
I'm sorry. Pleeeeeease don't hate  me okee? Please~ *cute face*
I mean if we think about it, I don't want to be in a rush to post crappy chapters. I hate when other people do that and so I don't want to do that to you guys. I reeeeeally hope you don't hate me. 
Once I'm home for the holidays I will have much more free time and be able to sit down and find inspiration. 
I love you all. <3

WHY CANT I WRITE!!
i mean i can but...aish i just need to get the words in my head right? right....
i mean i have a pretty damn good plot line going on here...like good shit. stuff that i didnt know i could come up with...
i need inspiration...maybe cuz no one reads my crap these days...so no one is saying: hurry and update like i tell everyone i am a fan of...aish i suck. 
feeling down today for every reason and no reason at all...you know what i mean? 
i will write, but i will feel it is for no cause what so ever...oh well. T-T
*depressed*