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trinkdufreak) wrote2012-08-26 09:54 pm
Title: La Douce Deni
Pairing: OnHo (Onew and Minho)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Minho is a college freshman and has a crush on a junior named Onew. What happens when the usually popular jock asks the people-phobic nerd Onew out on date?
A/N: part 7 for this fic~ thank you to those that have been avidly reading this! hope you enjoy ^^ WARNING its about to go down...don't hate me.
“Start talking Mr. I want to run away in the middle of the night and scare the crap out of my cousin and the guy who is in love with me and stay out on a damn bridge in the middle of winter all night and not answer any calls or text and make everyone have heart attacks.”
Onew stared blankly at Minho after what seemed to be Minho's very own outburst.
They both had ordered Chicken Alfredo pasta and Onew was sucking down soda like nobody's business. He probably needed the heat and nutrients in the pasta, and the sugar in the soda.
“Frustrated?” Onew was mocking him with a careful tone. Minho chewed his pasta with thwarted jolts of his jaw, his eyes knife-like as they glared at the man he loved sitting across from him.
“Not anymore I'm not.” Minho chose his words carefully. He was going to keep his temper in check this time, he was going to stay cool and not make any ego-tisitcal mistakes.
Onew sighed heavily before quickly stuffing a huge wad of noodles and sauce in to his mouth.
“You better start talking.” Minho threatened before sipping his drink. Onew shrugged and pointed to his bursting cheeks to notify Minho that he was obviously incapable of explaining himself at the moment. Minho rolled his eyes and waited for Onew to swallow. He snatched the plate of pasta away before Onew could stuff his face again, ignoring the older man's whine of protest.
“Talk.” Minho ordered.
“Okay okay,” Onew sighed again and bit his lip before strongly making eye contact with Minho,”there's a lot I have to say. I'm going to be completely honest, so I would appreciate it if you listened to everything I have to say and also if you're honest with me.”
The great thud in his stomach caused Minho to sit up straight and nod sternly,”Of course.”
Onew nodded, breathing heavily and readying himself. Minho had a feeling this was going to be a very important conversation they were going to have, that this conversation was going to change everything between them. He was ready for it.
“First of all,” Onew began, “I know Key told you about my parents.”
Minho bit his lip with mixed feelings; guilt, embarrassment, surprise, but mostly guilt.
“Its okay, I'm not upset about it. Jonghyun told me everything when we talked yesterday.” Onew was still making eye contact, noticing the guilty look on Minho's face and watching him intently, which was making Minho's heartbeat a steady pounding in his chest. It wasn't often that Onew made this kind of eye contact. It wasn't often that he put his full attention on Minho like this. He wasn't uncomfortable or anything, he was more so getting lost in those brown iris' and holding on to every word Onew was saying right then.
“How did Jonghyun know?” Minho asked, because he clearly remembered only talking to Key about Onew's parents...
The older man scoffed lightly at his naïve question,“Just know that whatever you discuss with Key will be shared with Jonghyun and then told to me.” Onew simply shrugged and it seemed to make sense when Minho really thought about it. His turn to be honest,
“Okay, so yes I knew. I'm sorry I didn't tell you I knew. I thought it would—“
“Upset me. I know you did. And thank you for thinking of me.” Onew cut Minho off with a gentle smile that was out of the ordinary. A lot of things were out of the ordinary with this meal.
“So...what did you and Jonghyun talk about exactly?” Minho asked after moments of thoughtful silence. Onew's eyes quickly darted down to his cup and he began playing with the straw, his brow crinkled in thought.
“Well, long story short we talked about you. And he was trying to inform me about how much you cared and how I should give you a chance. A real one he said. He told me that you already knew about my parents leaving me. And he also notified me that you lived right across the river...” he looked up carefully and with a small and shy smile on his lips, “ And so I came looking for you...and obviously got lost...yeah.” his nerd quickly pushed his straw in to his mouth after he was done, looking intensely at the dark liquid in his cup and not at Minho's beaming face.
Onew had come looking for him. Onew had talked about him while he was away. Onew had come looking for him after talking about him while he was away....real chance?
“Any questions?” Onew's voice was getting quieter Minho noticed, he was becoming shy in a very adorable way.
“Mmm-hmm.” Minho nodded and smiled wide again when Onew scrunched his nose in anticipation for his questions.
“Jonghyun told you I lived near to you?” Minho asked, Onew regretfully nodded.
“He told you to give me real chance?”Minho asked, Onew rolled his eyes but nodded.
“So you came to find me to give me a real chance?” Minho asked, Onew smirked and shook his head. He stopped sipping his soda and nibbled on his bottom lip for a moment before taking a big breath.
“I came because I need to make sure you know the real damage you're dealing with.” Onew slowly put that sentence together and seemed satisfied enough to pop a piece of chicken in his mouth.
“What do you mean?” Minho shot back.
Onew was quiet again for a long time, repetitively opening and closing his mouth. Minho could see the sentence forming and then being erased in his brain each time, wondering how he should start his sentence, wondering what the right word were or the question to start with was.
“Did...did Key...” Onew sucked in a breath and mentally pushed himself, “Did Key tell you about...Joon?” The name seemed painful to say by itself. It looked like it tasted bad, the bad memories playing across Onew's eyes as he looked at Minho with a questioning look. He didn't know who Joon was, but he had a bad feeling about him.
“No. He didn't.” Minho quietly answered, and waited patiently for Onew to begin explaining, also mentally preparing himself for the information coming his way.
“Joon was...my first. In a lot of ways. He was my first real relationship, the first person I said 'I love you' to, the first person to say 'I love you' to me, my first...” Onew swallowed as his eyes got a little red and irritated, “the first person I ever slept with. And he was the first person to dump me by sending me a text and then pretending I didn't exist.” the last part was barely above a whisper. Onew's eyes were distant as he relived the pain and rejection. And Minho immediately reached for his hand and squeezed gently, letting Onew know he was there for him. His heart thumped when Onew squeezed back lightly.
“He...we met my junior year in high school. He was a sophomore in college. Much older than me. He said he fell for me on the spot. Found me to be the perfect match for him. We met by chance near my school, nothing special. He was very handsome and nice and so energetic and funny... He was also a very rich business man's son. I thought he wouldn't like me because he lived such a polished life, but he was never bored with me.” the gently smile tugging at Onew's mouth was filled with longing but no regret. The small spark of jealousy was lit in Minho's gut then.
“He always found a way to make the day fun. He didn't try to rush me. He was careful with me. And he told me he loved me. We were together until my sophomore year in college. Last year. He was talking about marrying me after I graduated. He wanted to adopt kids with me, he wanted me to move in with him as soon as possible. He wanted me to meet his family, share a life together and be my everything...” the gentle smile turned bitter with stiff lips and downcast eyes.
“Like he wasn't already...” the angry but low growl came from Onew's stiff face. Minho waited quietly as Onew relived his past. He finally took a quick breath and continued,
“When he gave me the promise ring, I really opened up to him. I let him in, and shared with him about my parents, I let him see me at my most vulnerable state... And then I finally met his family.” Onew nodded to himself as if there was unspoken dialogue going on in his head, his voice becoming shaky and the redness along with water increasing in his eyes,
“Two days after meeting his family, he texted me and told me it was over. He couldn't see me anymore. I was obviously heartbroken and I went to his room to talk to him, but he wasn't there. I went to his home and...and...” the tears returned fresh and searing Onew's already pink cheeks. Minho squeezed his hand again reassuringly when a small cry escaped Onew's lips.
“And I showed up right when he was kissing his girlfriend goodbye, and his family was warmly telling her to come again soon.” the older man took ragged breaths, trying to keep it all in, trying to not break down completely in to pieces right there in the restaurant.
“He was cheating on me the whole time. He was planning to throw me away so he could live his...his...his perfect life!” Onew was gasping for air, the tears flowing more freely.
“I-I locked myself in my room for a week... and a month later news came about that he had taken over his father's company with his beautiful fiance at his side. I...I tried to contact him. And ask him why he had just dumped me like that. He told me...” the silence was filled with heavy breathing as Onew was slowly bringing the words to the surface. Facing them and saying them out loud. Right before he started talking again he looked Minho straight in the eye.
And Minho could see it again, all that dark pain that was holding him back and imprisoning him. It kept him at bay from everyone. It stopped him from letting Minho hold him and love him.
People he had loved with all his heart and with so much effort had dumped him aside. They had betrayed all of his trust and made him stop believing in humans. Because his parents who were supposed to love him eternally abandoned him. Because a man who had promised to cherish him had betrayed him for a rich lifestyle.
“He said I wasn't good enough. Just like my parents had thought so, he thought so too. He said I was just a phase, and that he didn't need me. No one did. He said, 'Don't you get it Onew? I'm abandoning you. I don't want you anymore. I never really did. You. Are. A. Waste. Of. Time.” rage and hurt mixing together at the end. Onew's tears didn't seems so sad anymore, they were frustrated as they charged down his cheeks. The fury was trying to push its way out, release itself and let Onew go completely mad. But Onew wouldn't let it. He only let small drops out it at a time. Its why he had been keeping Minho out. Its why there was no one on the planet Onew felt he could trust with his whole heart.
“He said the same damn thing you said. The same fucking thing to me over and over again. I would never hurt you, not in a million years. Not ever...” Onew's eyes looked up to Minho. Desperate as they searched for answers and pleading for help.
“Why do people do that? Why me?”
Minho didn't know. He really didn't. So he didn't try to answer it.
“I'm not him.” he replied. A simple answer that had so much more meaning behind it. Onew stared at him after he answered, his expression scrutinizing Minho and judging whether or not this statement was true or could be trusted. Minho wasn't him. He believed that he was absolutely nothing like this Joon. He wasn't looking for that kind of reputation, his family accepted his sexuality completely, he was looking forward to spending his whole life with Onew.
He would never hurt Onew like that, he told himself, not if it meant riches and fame. Not if it meant immortality or power beyond his wildest dreams. Onew was the companion he wanted by his side, the face he wanted to wake up to and snuggle against until Onew complained and swatted him away.
He wanted to bicker with him, and make up with him, to cry with him, to comfort him, to make him smile and laugh. He wanted to love Onew. That was all. He didn't want to hurt Onew.
“I promise you, I'm not him.” Minho said again, his own tears emerging as Onew gripped his hand tightly and leaned forward over the table.
“You promise?” Onew's sweet voice was still shaky and desperate. He sounded like a small child looking for that reassurance and hope. Small and fragile, small and hoping.
“I promise.” he made sure his voice was steady and earnest sounding. Because he was earnest about being with Onew and being everything Onew wanted him to be.
Onew's eyes were such a dark brown. They were such a rich dark brown and they seemed even darker with the extra water still collecting, they were shining and sparkling.
“I can't promise that I'll never hurt you Onew cuz I'm human and shit happens. But I'll never hurt you on purpose. I'll never hurt you intentionally. I'll never shut you out, I won't have a secret girlfriend, I'm not going to let someone else control my feeling for you.” his heart was doing a dance, his lungs were giving up, and his stomach was trying to empty itself. Here they were, he could feel it. They were almost falling in love.
Most of the tears were gone from Onew's cheeks. His sniffles were filtering down even though his pout still remained on those perfectly plump lips. Onew had turned back in to his shy nerd, all the frustration washed away for the moment. He was focusing on him and Minho, not the past.
“How do I know? That you're never going to do that. What if...” the pain shooting back in to Onew's features as he chocked on the question, “what if one day you don't want me anymore?”
Minho scoffed at him with a roll of his eyes. That was simply ridiculous.
“Thats simply ridiculous,” Minho spoke his thoughts and a gentle smile pulled at his nerd's lips,”how could I not want you when I'm obsessed with you?” he felt encouraged to continue when Onew breathed a small laugh.
“No seriously, I think I need therapy Onew. I'm obsessed with this nerd who hates me and wishes I would go away! The more you push me away the more I want you, the more you smile the more I need you. I'm sick. Physcotic if you will, I'm obsessed and there is nothing I can do about it.” Minho shrugged, mirroring the smile that was now on full display from Onew. He was so beautiful when he smiled like that, a shy smile, a genuine shy smile that was tearing Minho apart.
He liked being torn apart.
“I don't hate you.” Onew murmured. He twirled his pasta like his life depended on it. His brow creased again and that pout appeared, so Minho waited for him to finish thinking whatever it was through.
Onew took a shallow breath, “Okay.” and nodded to himself before looking up at Minho with a satisfied smile.
Minho shot back a confused brow because he had no idea what Onew was saying 'Okay' to.
“I...I want to give you a shot Minho. I do.” and his heart just disappeared.
“But I need time. Just...alot of time. Don't rush me, I'll say when I'm ready for anything. Don't try to push me ahead or...just give me time. I want to...but I can't. And I hope you're willing to wait for me. I just need you to wait a while...just give me time. Okay? Minho? Minho. Could you please stop staring and answer me please? Minho!”
This. Was. Not. Happening.
He was dreaming, this was heaven, this was hell, dirty dream? There was no way. This was not possible. It was a sick joke right? This could not be real because he was feeling too happy for this to be real. There was this ball of excitement that had joined with a ball of joy and he felt like he about to burst in to tiny little pieces and holy shit was this really happening?! He needed to tell everyone and shout this and scream and sing and dance and get this magnificent feeling out of his system, it was overwhelming and intoxicating!
He was so happy.
“Could you not suffocate me please? Thanks.” the most wonderful and irritated voice ever grunted in his ear. When had he moved to other side of the table and glomped Onew? Who cared?! He was holding him and Onew wasn't exactly pushing away he noticed. Infact, Onew's arms were around his neck. They weren't exactly holding him back, they were just placed there. But hey, that was a start.
“I love you.” Minho hummed as he held Onew tighter, trying to savor this moment that he thought was impossible. A moment he'd had so many times in his dreams, but this was so much better. He kept holding on until Onew was urged to hit him and take back any chance he had just spoken about. Minho was like a giddy school girl as he sat back on his side of the table and they continued to eat. He couldn't stop smiling and staring at the man across from him that was switching between clearly annoyed and shy smirking. This was probably the best meal he'd ever had in his life.
“So does this mean you'll go out with me?” the thought popped in to his head suddenly and he was leaning eagerly over his pasta bowl.
Onew chuckled (oh god he had never heard him chuckle before!), “No.” the word fell so easily from his lips and Minho's stuttered not so easily.
“What? Why?! How the hell is this going to be a real chance when—“
“Not until we get back to school. And we can't go anywhere we've already eaten at before. Somewhere new, somewhere nice, no bars.” Onew added with a warning glare. His heart skipped back into a steady pounding and his smile returned.
“Oh,” the relief was to obvious,”Okay then.”
They continued their meal of subtle gazed and small laughs at nothing. Minho attempted to play with Onew's feet but was shut down with another stomp to his big toe. Yeah that was going to bruise. But he was too happy to complain or become gloomy. Onew was going to give him a chance. He had a chance. Minho had actually grown on him. He had rubbed off on him just like Jonghyun said he would.
Oh this was worth it, the wait was so so so worth it. Because this feeling, in his gut and in his heart that swarmed over his whole being was so amazing and intense and he could not stop smiling.
His thoughts trailed back to the night that Jonghyun had said he would rub off on him...it was hazy but he remembered. He remembered the first day of 'leeching' as Key had put it. How annoyed Onew was to see him. He remembered the day he almost had Onew tell him about his past, and then compared it to this moment.
“So worth it.” Minho whispered while still gazing fondly at the man across from him. Onew was worth the wait. But he had known that since the first time ever seeing his smile.
He had a chance now from Onew, and he was not going to screw this up.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Donghae didn't care to hear about his little love story, he just cared that his car was back in one piece. His dad was away still on his way home from work when Minho had returned, and his grandparents were arguing about someone from their past. So Minho had cornered his step-mother in the kitchen and began babbling about his meal with Onew. He told her how he had looked when he had found him on the bridge. He told her how cute he was with his pout. He told her how much it sucked that Key wouldn't let him spend the night over here and that he had to say goodbye.
And he also told her how great it was that Onew had agreed to attend Kyuhyun's New Years party tomorrow night with Key and Jonghyun. He was too excited for that. Although Onew had pointed out that he was not Minho's date, he was still excited to know Onew was going to be there.
“What should I wear? Should I text him now? Do me and Donghae need to go pick them up? Do I stick with him all night? Or do I act all chill and leave him alone? No that’s stupid I just got him to be around me willingly...”
His step-mother smiled at him as she prepared meat and vegetables for the family's dinner. Minho assured her that he would only have a salad since he had just eaten, so she could make a smaller portion of food. She was a good listener overall. She nodded her head for the right parts, she laughed when needed to, and she commented correctly each time.
Almost like his mother used too...
“I hope I never made it hard for you.” Minho said after the conversation was long over, but he remained on the counter enjoying her company. She was an excellent cook and he liked to see how her masterpieces were made.
“What do you mean?” she hummed as she expertly added spices and butter to the hot pan.
“When you first joined our family...I hope I wasn't rude or anything. I can't really remember if I was mean to you...” Minho waited and watched her nod her head in acknowledgment but focused on how she placed the vegetables for a second. When she was done she turned to Minho with her eyes strong and wise. It was a guard, she was trying to be a strong person in front of Minho, to be understanding. She always had been, always putting in her 500% because she needed to prove she was worthy of their family.
“You acted as any child would after losing someone, and then having a new person take over their position. You were still young Minho, you had lost your mother and you did not want a new one. It was understandable.” she paused to notice that Minho wasn't exactly happy with this answer. God he was a spoiled brat to have treated her that way. Had he always been so rude about things?
“Don't worry, you never made it hard just...” and her eyes smiled with a gentleness that made him do a double-take,”...you made it interesting. And I feel more loved now that you have grown to me and I to you, rather than faking our way in to this hmm?” she was holding back her tears. Minho nodded and reached for a paper towel to give to her. She let out a breathy laugh and took it thankfully. No, she wasn't like his mother at all. His mother wouldn't have ever cried in front of her sons even if it was the most heart-warming drama. She would have kept on smiling. But he had a feeling that if his step-mother and his mother had met before anything, they would have been friends. Great friends. His step-mother would have always told his step-mother to stop crying and his step-mother would have made his mother laugh with her undying cuteness.
He liked that.
“So will I ever get to meet Onew? Or are you still doing the uh-what did you call it?-leeching thing?” she asked as she added meat to her hot pan. Minho laughed and slid down the counter.
“I don't think I have to leech anymore, I'm kind of just...” what was the word for what he and Onew were doing?
“I'm taking a chance that was given to me, give him time....and not screwing up!” he shrugged and shared an easy laugh with this step-mother.
“Yeah, please don't screw it up! You promised me a little girl.” she threw him a hopeful look to which Minho rolled his eyes.
“I'm not going to screw up!” he said loudly and obnoxiously. He acted like he was insulted and stomped out of the kitchen, heading to his brother's room to mess with him until dinner time.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Kyuhyun's house was well lit, his living room was large and the couches were beige and soft. His kitchen was average with white tiles, all the bottles and snacks set up nicely. The second story was off limits, so was the basement. All the boys were going to be put in to the living room, kitchen, and first story bathroom. Minho and Donghae had showed up early to help set up.
Kyuhyun and Donghae were close friends and immediately started acting like it when they began the teasing of Minho and his 'wifey'.
“Hae, you should of seen him! Everyday cutting up fruit and pouring juice like a stay home husband!” Kyuhyun smiled while setting bottles up on to the counter. It was Minho's idea to organize the bottles from 'non-alcohol' in to 'light alcohol' and 'heavy alcohol'.
“Dearest Onew, do you want watermelon for breakfast?” Donghae did a very good imitation of Minho's voice. He was biting his tongue. He knew from experience that if he showed any reaction they would get more hyped up and continue.
“Yes my Minho, can you pour me a fruit smoothie too?” Kyuhyun batted his eyes at Donghae. They pair were laughing, and Minho didn't understand why because it really wasn't that funny. He rolled his eyes and continued to set up cups aside the bottles of cider.
“I really don't know why he likes him either,” Kyuhyun continued,”I mean he's cute yeah, but he doesn't ever talk to anyone. He give Minho attitude every day, he never texts Minho back, I mean...Minho can get anyone he wants! And he wants that? Why?” Kyuhyun giggled and
Donghae shared in the laughter. But Minho and Donghae glanced at each other, small smiles exchanged with knowing eyes.
“Ah Kyu maybe there is more to him than we know hmm?” Donghae sighed. And that was why Donghae was his brother and his best friend. He swiftly showed support for Minho's feelings, but kept Minho's confession to himself. They both knew how and why Minho felt the way he did. But only they needed to know that.
“Mmmm maybe. What do you like about him Minho?” Kyuhyun turned his attention to the youngest in the room. Again Donghae and Minho exchanges glances. Minho's arched brow asked if he should actually tell Kyuhyun how he felt about Onew. Donghae's eye-rolling told him hell no he should not.
“Like you said Hyung, he's very cute.” Minho said.
“That is the stupidest reason ever to cut fruit.” Kyuhyun laughed and the brothers joined in agreement.
After setting up they collaborated on the music for the party and ignored Kyuhyun's mother, Mrs. Cho, protesting dirty music. His father, Mr. Cho, eased her up the stairs assuring her that he would come back down later to make the music more appropriate, even though he winked at the three boys when she wasn't looking.
Around 9 o'clock the first batch of boys arrived. Old school mates they hadn't seen in awhile shared high-fives and man-hugs. Donghae had invited three guys from his work which Kyuhyun had previously approved of.
With the smaller group they started a couple of easy games to break the ice. Two truths and a lie was pretty fun, and they pulled out a couple of board games. When more guys showed up the television was turned on and the music was lowered to be background sound. A group was steadily watching the New Years performances, a few were chatting around the stereo, while Minho was sitting with the group that was playing a playful game of 'I Have Never'. Minho had one finger left, and he had a feeling he was going to be the first one out.
“I have never...hmmm..”a guy from Donghae's work was taking his turn, looking around at the others in the semi-circle. He was sizing them up to see how he could get more fingers to go down in his benefit. His eyes landed on Donghae, who was sitting next to Minho, and both brothers feared the worst was about to come. “I've never had a brother.”
Minho's bitter groan was far more louder than Donghae's who was now down to three fingers. Minho was out, and mildly pissed off. He hated losing games, especially little kid shit that should have been so easy to win. He glanced at the time on the television, realizing it was already 10:30. Was Onew going to come soon? He had tried to not think about it since he'd woken up, but he had not succeeded. His first thought was to check his phone, maybe after their conversation Onew had turned a new page. But alas, there were no new messages. He had to remember that they were taking this new step really slow. He'd asked what exactly they were now, were they seeing each other? Were they promised to another? Were they exclusive?
“Why do you ask that? Are you planning to go sleep with people?” Onew's question made Minho almost pound the breaks on his brother's car.
“What?! What do mean? What the hell are you talking about?” he sighed in attempt to control his temper which was spiking as Onew glared at him.
“Just because we know how we both feel doesn't mean we both instantly change Minho.” he noted to himself that he needed to keep asking Onew what he meant when he said things, and to listen. Things like that made his anger cease altogether.
“I asked because I don't want some perfect citizen guy coming along and stealing you away. Okay?” his tone was gentle and apologetic. Onew nodded, “Okay. We're exclusive.” that had kept him smiling in to his sleep.
So where was he? Did he text him or call him? Would that make Onew mad if he contacted him? Technically they hadn't discussed Onew's 'gift' and if it was terminated or not...
“He'll get here soon enough.” his brother muttered as everyone in the room's attention turned to Kyuhyun's father who was now offering every guy a drink. Minho smiled and nodded.
“Let's all have one beer alright boys? Just one for now you don't need anymore, 'specially the kids here.” the older man smiled as each man came up to him to take their can. Kyunhyun's father personally strolled over to where the brothers were sitting and handed them both a beer. Minho declined at first, but Kyuhyun's father insisted that everyone take one. Donghae nudged him to just take the damn can for the sake of manners.
And then Mr. Cho cracked his can open and asked the boys to toast with him. Minho sent his brother an annoyed glare, Donghae returned the biggest smile he could stretch.
“I know you boys have known my son for a long time, and I know you all are headed for great things and successful lives. I wish you both the best of luck and bright futures.” they clinked their cans and Minho took the tiniest sip of alcohol he had ever taken in his life. He wasn't planning on even getting a light buzz tonight. He wanted to have a good time with no alcohol whatsoever.
“Sorry Minho, do you want a different kind of drink?” damnit Mr. Cho noticed his mini-sip. He gulped a healthy amount down before smiling and assuring Kyuhyun's father that the beer was perfectly fine.
He was fighting the mental pull to take a few more gulps of his beer when everyone started to become affected by it. Every guy was laughing and having a good time. He just wanted Onew to hurry up and get there. He wanted to talk to him and have his brother meet him. He wanted to see him. Really bad. And his head had never snapped up faster at the sound of a doorbell ringing.
His eyes were glued to Kyuhyun's form as it walked over to the front door, his eyes were stuck as the door opened, and his jaw dropped when he saw who was standing there.
The smaller boy smiled widely and was pulled in to a hug by Kyuhyun, his eyes sparkling as he stepped inside. Kyuhyun immediately flagged Minho over to say hello. His knees were shaking, and he felt his grip tighten on the beer he was holding.
“Hey Minho!” the smiling angel chirped and didn't hesitate to wrap delicate arms around Minho's waist. He couldn't even remember the last time he'd seen this person.
“Taemin, what are you doing here?” he panted. Had he just panted? Taemin's giggle made him smile down at him automatically, taking in the person who had stolen his first kiss. He had changed a quite a bit. He wasn't as stringy as he used to be, his arms had some tone to them. His hair was a shocking red that went past his shoulders compared to the shagging blonde he had once flaunted. And he had contacts in that made his eyes a warm honey. His fashion had changed, no more simple blue jeans and puffy jackets. Minho could see the silk thighs through extremely torn jeans and the smoothness of his arms and neck with the low hanging tank top. Taemin had changed completely. He was much more sexy, Minho was not going to lie. But he still had that innocence and delicacy that radiated in his blushing smile and his feather touches.
“Kyuhyun invited me, so I thought why not?” Taemin shrugged, “its good to see you. You look amazing!” he gestured at Minho's appearance. Minho had opted for fitted jeans and a long sweater to keep him warm.
“Hey you guys go chill out, I'll grab you a drink.” Kyuhyun took Taemin's jacket and headed in to the kitchen. The pair stood together for a minute, taking in the fact that he hadn't seen this person in about...three years? Three years was a long time. Taemin broke the awkward tension by asking if they should go sit on the couch he was previously at. When they sat down, Minho's body tensed at the feel of the smaller boy sitting extremely close. Their knees and shoulders were touching. It then seemed obvious what Taemin had in mind for coming to the party. Minho did his best to be pleasant with the smaller boy who went on and on about his past and how this had reminded him of Minho and did he remember that one time they did that and how much he missed Minho. It was nice, but for some reason the more Taemin talked, the more he leaned in. The more he leaned in, the more his body ended up sliding on top of Minho's to sit in his lap. The more he sat in his lap, the greater the guilt in his gut rose and made him nauseous.
“So what have you been up to? Breaking hearts and tearing rooms apart still?” Taemin's playful eyes sent heat to his groin. Taemin was hinting at their first time sleeping together. It was both of their first time. It had started out innocent and sweet...Minho had found his inner sexual beast and almost torn Taemin's room apart with all the positions he had put him in to.
The breaking hearts part was...well more delicate. Taemin's father had found a better job in a larger city farther away from their smaller town. When Minho had heard the news, he immediately broke up with Taemin and said he had found someone new. The smaller boy had broken down and ran away with screams of how much he hated Minho. He didn't seem to be affected by it...
“No...not breaking hearts.” he muttered. But a familiar face flashed across his mind with a cute pout and hot angry tears.
“But still fucking everything with legs right?” Taemin's tone didn't sound spiteful or mean. Playful and flirty was more like it. He knew that Taemin and Kyuhyun still kept in touch after he had moved away, so he probably knew about Minho's reputation.
“Uh...kind of...used to. Things have changed recently.” he faintly smiled at the thought of a boy with cheeks stuffed full of chicken Alfredo pasta.
“Changed? Why's that?” when had Taemin's hand linked in to his own?
“Someone special.” he wasn't going to explain everything to his first ex-boyfriend. He was still staring at their hands intertwined when he heard Taemin sigh with disappointment.
“That's too bad. I was kind of hoping you were still single or something...” Taemin trailed off, his finger twirling in to one of Minho's locks of hair.
“Well I'm kind of not.” he retorted. Taemin didn't even flinch at his harsh tone.
“Where exactly is this special someone?” damn it, Taemin hadn't changed when it came to be a nosy person and being a brat when he wanted his way.
“Not here yet.” Minho retorted.
“Not here at all you mean.”
“He'll be here.”
“But its almost midnight.”
“Well he can come after midnight.”
“But who will you kiss at midnight.”
“No one.”
“Wrong.”
“What?”
“Me.”
“No!” his voice had accidentally gotten to yelling mode. He sat back, watching Taemin recover from the sudden outburst. It took Taemin a moment to recover, but he eventually leaned back in to Minho. Somehow he had ended fully seated on Minho's lap, his right arm looped over the taller man's neck and his beer in his left hand. This wasn't the best situation to be in.
Someone called out the 30 second count down to midnight. The panic bursting in to his stomach made him try to get out of his seat, but Taemin persisted in having Minho stay put with a tighter grip on his neck. Where was Onew? Was he not showing up? Had he been ditched?
“I miss you Minho.” the whisper was in his ear, Taemin's tongue vaguely touching his lobe. He shuddered out of disgust, but Taemin seemed to think this was encouragement. He didn't hesitate to bite down on the shell of his ear, trying to lure Minho in. People started chanting excitedly, counting down to midnight.
Ten!
He tried to push Taemin away.
Nine!
Taemin gripped his hand and pulled closer.
Eight!
“One kiss won't hurt Minho.”
Seven!
“Get off.”
Six!
Taemin smiled like he was joking.
Five!
He heard the faint rushed welcomes near the door as people were rushed in, his stomach dropped.
Four!
The sound of the door slamming, someone was asking where Minho was...oh god no.
Three!
“One kiss Minho.”
Two!
Onew locked eyes with him from across the room. His stomach fell down completely. No.
One!
“Onew” he barely whispered.
Happy New Year!
Taemin forced his lips on to Minho's, his eyes opening in shock. He was stunned, and he didn't move for a moment. Taemin pulled away with a satisfied smirk and offered to make a toast with their beers...oh that was right he still had his beer in his hand. He had a beer in his hand and Taemin had just kissed him.
He dared look back to the entrance, only to see his worst fear. Onew didn't look mad. He didn't look upset. He wasn't annoyed, or frustrated. He wasn't even jealous.
He was heartbroken.
All the trust he had built up, all the hope he had held on to, and every feeling that might have existed...was gone.
“No.” he didn't even feel his lips moving. Onew's face was blank, trying to hold all the pain inside. Like he always did. He was shutting Minho out again.
“No, please don't.” he begged, and as if Onew heard him from across the room he shook his head at Minho. He shook his head and lowered his eyes. He turned around and began to walk out.
“Taemin,” Minho turned to the boy still sitting in his lap,”get the fuck off.” he growled. It was enough to send the smaller man away in slight fear. The minute his weight was gone Minho was rushing to the door. He had screwed up. Big time.
“Onew!” he called. He knew his nerd had heard him, because he sped up. Key and Jonghyun were still by the door when Onew pushed past them. They did a double-take back to Minho who ignored them and ran out the door after him.
Onew wasn't far down the street, so Minho jogged to meet him.
“Onew!” he said, his voice was desperate, mostly because he was.
“Go back.” his heart jumped at the harsh voice.
“Please let me explain!” he tried but Onew kept walking, his head down and his steps quick.
“I said go back.” he wouldn't even look at him.
“Please, its not—It wasn't—fuck would you just wait I'm trying to talk to you!” he was not going to lose his temper, he wasn't even justified to lose his temper right now.
“Go talk to that other guy. You seem to like talking to him.” he deserved that.
“Onew please we just talked about this yesterday! You know how I feel! I would never hurt y—“
“SHUT THE FUCK UP!” Minho tripped backwards, the power of Onew's scream making him stop in his tracks, heart slamming against his ribs.
“I fucking hate you! You are just like him you fucking liar! Fuck you! Get the fuck out of my life and don't come back! I fucking...you just...UUUGGH!” and the tears began to fall, not quietly, not softly. They poured, and Onew's face was red with anger and pain and distrust. His sobs made him heel over and clutch his head, the sobs making his breathing erratic and loud.
“Onew—“
“I said shut up.” Onew's head was still down, clutched in his hands, trying to hold on to sanity that he had not control over. They stayed like that, while Onew calmed down, while his sobs turned in to sniffles and he was able to stand up straight. But the feelings were still there, boring in to Minho as Onew stared at him.
“I...I trusted you. I actually had the audacity to fucking trust you. A fucking player, a fucking asshole. What the fuck was I thinking? You. You, Choi Minho. I'm so fucking stupid. I...” fresh tears began to pour down his face, but his lips tried their best to seal in the cries. And he wouldn't look at Minho, he wouldn't spare him a glance. Because Minho was no longer important enough. He was not worthy.
“Don't talk to me. Don't come near me. Fuck! And I almost...” his eyes looked up, trying to stop the tears as they kept coming down.
“I almost fell for your stupid act. It was all lies, it was all stupid lies damn it I should've known.” Onew huffed a laugh to himself, shaking his head at the personal joke in his mind.
“Onew—“
“Shut. Up.”
“Jinki!” Minho yelled, and regretted it instantly. Onew looked up at him, his eyes finally meeting Minho's desperate gaze. But there was no hope there, no small amount of want or need. The walls were up, the defense in full gear. Onew was no longer his. He looked outraged that Minho even dared to use his real name, because Minho was not worthy. Minho was nothing to him.
“Just so you know, we're not exclusive. Go fuck yourself and who ever the fuck else you want.” his tone was so cold, so violent, so far away. And Minho couldn't chase after him as he walked away down the street. He couldn't follow him and beg for a chance to explain, to tell him he loved him.
He had screwed it up. His one chance.
He was worthless, he didn't deserve someone like Onew.
But maybe he'd known that all along.
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A/N: welp there it is! Ohmagawd what will happen now? muahahaha! sorry this took so long to be up! if you didn't know I was working at a summer camp over in california for a few months. there was barely any wi-fi, I was a 24/7 counselor and yeah. then i got home in California, regrouped maself and moved back to Pennsylvania for college where I am now. My classes start tomorrow and I'm alittle nervous but oh well! I'm going to do my best to finish this fic up as quickly as possible! but thank you to those that continue to read ma stuff and I hope you enjoy!
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Okay...back to the fic though. YOU ARE CRUEL! CRUEL, I TELL YOU! You had Minho all excited and Onew ready and willing to give him a chance. They went on like a mini-date and Minho was all spazztic and they were cute and Onew was shy and adorable and scared but still WILLING! He wants to give Minho a chance!
But no, NO! You...miss writer...decide that Minho should fuck up again and Onew gets to see and he's all heartbroken again and that is just CRUEL! IT'S TERRIBLE!
I mean Onew really opened up to Minho about Joon and his family and everything he's been through and then Taemin-devil comes in and decides he wants to pick up where Minho and him left off. Dude...the past is the past...Minho is different now. He wants to be different and he wants to be with Onew but everyone and everything keeps tearing them apart. I don't want bad-boy-Minho to come back. I want him to be happy and giddy and goofy with Onew.
It just broke my heart at the end when Onew got mad and loud and yelled at Minho. He's starts doubting himself again and he breaks down and the walls go up and I'm like...seriously Minho, are you so weak to slutty guys that you can't get yourself out of a bad situation. He could had thrown Taemin off of him like it was nothing. He wasn't drinking that much. He could have stopped the situation before it even started but he let it happen and now Onew is the one hurting again and I just want to slap Minho. Really...how hard is it to tell someone NO and make them leave you alone? Minho should be clear with everyone about what he wants or he'll never win Onew over.
This is just sad. It's so frustrating and sad because I want Onew to end up with Minho and be able to trust in someone again and I want Minho to change and I know it takes time, but damn I don't want Onew hurting anymore. :(
You did a great job getting me all upset and frustrated. I was so mad by then end of this I wanted to punch Minho for being stupid. He ruined his own chance. It's his fault. And again...you are CRUEL! CRUEL!!!!! Ughhhhh...my feels TT_TT
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first of all: IM SORRY IT HAD TO HAPPEN!! i tried to stop Minho, i did. but he's an idiot, we know this.
Im cruel, hate me if you must. but the reality is that you knew it was going to happen DONT LIE I WARNED YOU!!
it was really sad right? like their perfect bliss lasted no more than a day and then... *explosion sound* yurp.
i was honestly feeling out a moment with someone that i screamed at like that, cuz i couldn't trust them anymore when i thought i could, and i just you know carved it to Onew's feelings and situation. i think it got through to ma readers lol.
i was doing good things with my life, and now back to school whhyyy??/ i dont like :/
im already exauhsted and want to quit but no no must keep swimming. how is school so far for you? im sure you're all smarticle and stuffs hehehe
anywho i updated so if and when you have time miss lovely feel free to read through that <333
*focused on your gif* ayjayjay stop crying lady BE A WOMAN!! lol idk what that means...
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Anyways, back to business...two...TAEMIN FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU WTF SDJKHGHFDVBXCUJYDSFGIDS I thought everything was going okay. Until...until...*breaks down and bawls like a little kid* Onew omfg T.T I wanna strangle Taemin so bad for kissing Minho :( Holy jaksdhgfkjs Why must life be so cruel? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY WHYYYYYYYYY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????? *is still bawling dramatically and kneels down*
I know you said shit's about to go down and I prepared myself for anything that might happen but omg my heart is just...hurting ;A; Your writing is that effective. I could feel Onew and Minho's emotions. *applauds you*
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come here you beautiful person I love you and I'm sorry i have put you in pain TT-TT
yaaaa who's writing are you calling effective? stop it! lol.
psh i will save you a spot from now on, dont trip potato chip!
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but since you alr back and give us the new chapter..so... apologize accepted lol....
i'm glad that the another reason was jinki broken with joon...because i think too much and it wasnt a good thing xD
ASDFGHSJDKDKDKKHVSB LEE TAEMIN....WHAT ARE YOU DOING why are you kissing your ex so carelessly щ(ﾟДﾟщ)(屮ﾟДﾟ)屮 minho has jinki now....
and that drama thing...
WAE JINKI'S COMING IN THAT MOMENT ASDFGHJSLABAAVAG this isnt good this isnt goooodddd (╯°□°）╯︵┻━┻ (╯°□°）╯︵┻━┻ jinki must be upset again.. （ ＴДＴ）
yaaaaaaa minkeroro...
you should run to him...
just do everything to explain it all... (/*｀д´)/ grrrrrr.....
hey you dramawriter unnie...lol jk
i hope that you can manage your rl well so that you can write this story as well as ur real life..
keep healthy unnie and i hope that i can see another chapter asap...
（*＾3＾）
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of course jinki had to come in at that moment, or else it wouldn't be epic and drama! but was the whole drama part actually sad or no? tell me honestly, like did you really freak out as jinki walked in and then minho chasing him and them fighting?
i still cant get over your table flipping lol its so funny!!
i am going to try my best to manage it because i am going to try and get a job soon...like today and yeah. fighting doensaeng!
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and it help me so much for expressing my unspoken word...lol
(reply ur first comment) OF COURSE I STILL LIKE YOU... why???..
tbh the drama part is sad enough but i know that you can do something more devil than this one... haha:P...
of course i was freak out.that's why there's a table flipping xDD.. i just didnt expect that the drama part is about jinki was see that minho kissing someone (betraying him) i thought it was kind of minho left jinki around while he's too busy chit-chating with his mate and because his insecurities jinki's mad with him...
(taemin is always a cockblock kid in minnew relation /pats taemminie) xDD
haha same here... i think i should find a job too..
i want to make money by maself...so fighting for us... *0*)9
fighting for you tooo *0*)9 *0*)9
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I just want to let you know that everything is going to be okay! lets not punch taemin, lets just shove him until he falls down okay? okay!
glad you enjoyed...i think lol. don't give up! we all know it had to happen sometime~ hehehe
I'm evil no? ^^
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minho, fix things up, quickly!!!! @_______@
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when jinki finally gave minho a chance i was like KAJLDKJFSDJGSHGLD;FGJSJKDG YAY SQUEALS HAPPY THEY'RE EXCLUSIVE AND MINHO WAS SO CUTE WHEN HE WAS TALKING TO HIM STEP-MOM *___*
and then...DUN DUN DUN. he went to the party and i had this really horrible feeling in my gut that things were going to go bad at the party especially when he took that beer and alskaljdfksfj i was so scared to scroll down (literally, like, i had to stop a few times because i knew that shit was about to go down and i didn't want shit to go down even though it makes the story more interesting and it did and self, stfu). and then taemin came alone and i was just like oh. fuck. BECAUSE TRUST TAEMIN TO RUIN THINGS REALLY. KJDAJHFSJDHFKJSSJ TAEMIN WHY I HATE YOU.
not really. BUT I HATE YOU.and oh my heart was breaking into tiny winnie little pieces because minho is nothing to jinki and minho doesn't deserve jinki and just the whole jinki not trusting minho anymore and i can feel minho's heartbreak and it hurts so much that i started bawling and i never really cry when reading but ohmygod it hurts a lot and <//////3 jinki baby please trust minho minho loves you and please love him back and and and T____________T *explodes* see this is why i don't comment i ramble a lot but i hope you understood what i was talking about in short i loved it, i love this and kdjdslfjsdkfjskfj looking forward to your next update! :3 <3
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wasn't it so beautiful at first? all the love in the air, all the cuteness and yay they are finally together and then TAEMIN RUINED EVERYTHINGGGG i know it sucks. *sigh* it had to happen, sorrry~
your keyboard smashing made me very happy, and this whole comment i had this big ass smile on ma face cuz omg you're so funny eheheh thank you for commenting and creepy reading.
itd be nice if you kept commenting, but either way i hope you enjoy and continue to read. ^^
*jumps out window on to unicorn and rides away*
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thank you for reading and commenting lol :D
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Onew gave minho a chance.
Their convo at a cafe, so lovey dovey >_<
BUT!
LEE FUCKING TAEMIN I HATE YOUUUUUU
YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!
ABDGAPATDTDXTJPDW
If taemin was not there, onew and minho were still fine.
Onew ;;;_____;;;
the last scene broke my heart,
i hate to see onew cried and in pain, and also minho. . you lost your chance ;;___;;
pls pls update soon
hope onew can forgive minho ;;___;;
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kekekeke jk~
mmmm yeah it did seem all good didn't it? and then...yeah. sorry bout that, it had to happen TT-TT
thank you for commenting and reading <33
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But today I got this feeling to read some of Onho fics, and when I open my friend page, I see your fic. And I think why not? I've been read your "My Competition" fics before and I love it, so I'm really sure this fic will be as good as the previous one.
And should I tell you that I'm not regret it at all!!! This fics was AMAZING beyond words!!! OMG!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ The one I regret about this was when I clicked the next button it not bring me to the next chapt... XP What a life!!! Hahaha...
Now, I will sit here and patiently waiting for your next update... ;3 You just make a new fan here, keep a good work. And thanks for the fic... :D
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...may I ask what fandom distracted you?? O.O
I'm also very honored to get you back in to the life of OnHo, cuz they are true love <333
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Well if you really want to know, that was Harry Potter fandom... XD That time I feel frustrated because lack of Onho fics, every time I open my friend page, there always NO new Onho fic. It very sad, really. I keep re-reading old fic, and it make me feel a bit bored. And then I just stumble on one Harry Potter fics (that was Harry/Draco). At first what I think is, they was such a weird pairing, but since I'm bored I just give it a go. And damn, that was really nice, and without my knowing I'm only read Drarry fics for past eight month... XD I feel a little bad for abandoned Onho, really!! But that was quite a good distracted. And now I'm ready to back to this fandom. It's nice to see there was more and more Onho fics these days... XD
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thank you for commenting and reading!
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I love your comment, gaaaah make me blush
^///^
OnHo is true love, that is all.
thank you for reading and commenting, I really appreciate it every time, makes me smile :D
<333
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But Noooooooo... when I thought it would be all fluffy.. *cries more*
Taemin you bad bad boy!
Anyway, glad to have you back (: I love this chapter.
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thank you for reading and commenting!
i hope no one like hates taemin after this ehehe..oops.
I'm sorry, all things can not be fluffy TT-TT
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Oh no, my tears is slowly slowing down now, geez -.-
I really hate Taemin here *sorry, hehehe...*
So, what's gonna be happen now???
Please let someone tell Onew that Minho is not cheating TT^TT
OMO, they just started the relationship for goodness sake......*sigh......*
Please don't break my forever onho's love, kekekeke.......
thanks for the update ^________________^
I'm really glad u updated this story XD
Waiting.....waiting.....*and really hope u'll update soon, and please make OnHo together again T^T*
Fighting <3
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don't cry!!!
I would never break up OnHo! they are true love ^^
thank you for continuing to read <33 Fighting!
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I was just so happy but when I saw that Taemin showed up, I KNEW SOMETHING WOULD HAPPEN
OH you (Taemin) bastard! I...
And WHY did Onew showed up JUST WHEN Taemin kissed Minho???
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAEEEEEE!!!!???!!!!????
Why are you so MEEEAN!
I'm so frustrated now? How will Minho get Onew back? Will he?
I'm crying, really I'm just so frusrated, you can't even imagine!!!
Will Onew give him a second chance?
I'm heartbroken
PS: I just had my first day of school, with TONS of homeworks already. I don't even know how I'll do it now. I almost has a heart-attack when I saw THIS but you just left me frustrated as hell!? HOW CAN I CONCENTRATE MYSELF ON HOMEWORKS NOW!!!???
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yaaaa did you finish your homework? hope this wasn't too much of a distraction~
you know and I know it was going to happen the minute Minho said he wasn't going to screw up lol.
okay, so in the future if i ever write other sad ass stories and you happen to read them, just know that I'm like Jane Austin, there will always be a happy ending!! okay?
^^ hope you are less frustrtated :D
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taemin should go back to where ever he came from, off a cliff or back up his mother vagina. It doesn't matter where just make him leave~ c:
I seriously hate how in books and movies when someone forcibly kisses someone who has just solved a problem or was let off the hook about something and that person just stands there like a fucking deer caught in headlights or a sitting duck once their lips meet as well as the catching the eyes of their actually love interest. Like really if I was in the situation there would've been someone on their ass on the floor. If I said no I will fucking show you what no means. /ramble, ramble, make no sense what so ever, bicker, bicker/
but anyway the first part was amazing until taemin came and ruin any chance Minho might have had. yeah...thats all lol. love you<3
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sorry this is like a super late reply...anywho.
i agree with you, minho should've been a man and just avoided the WHOLE situation. but you know...drama had to go down. oh well~
thanks for your comment Love <3
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I cry, its nana! ;_; /rolls away/
I know drama had to go down, it wouldn't have been as entertaining if it didn't! :3
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Anyway yeah! I'm sooooo happy that you're back and you updated <3 reading this chapter was like riding a roller coaster for me. Up and down. First you got smiling like an idiot then bawling my eyes then smiling again and then sobbing my heart out lmfao but yea thats what happened XD
I'm sure taemin already received so many hate forthis, so i wont say the hate word for taem anymore haha
This chapter is as amazing as your other fics. Thanks for updating! :3
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you know what? Im happy to be back quite honestly! love writing <33
aaah sorry i made you cry bb, but the next chapter should be a little less...emotional if that helps OTL
you're so amazing and sweet thank you for the sweet comment <333
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